Faith

I was talking to a girl at Julie's house yesterday about a friend of theirs that was adopting a little girl from China. She said it took them FOUR YEARS.... I felt my heart breaking at that number. In my head all I could think was "four years?? Everyone else only has to wait 9 months! We've already waited 3 1/2 years... another four years??" Then my hand fell on my car keys. When I was in high school I went to youth program one Wednesday night with some friends and the youth pastor gave out nuts to everyone (the nuts like you put on screw to hold them in place). He told us the story about how on helicopters there is a nut at the top of the blades that holds them in place and pilots often call it the "Jesus Nut" because they have to have faith that it was put on properly and that God will keep them safe. I have kept my Jesus nut for these past 10 years and often play with it when I'm holding my keys. Yesterday, I needed that Jesus nut. It reminded me that I have to have faith that God will keep me safe- emotionally, that is. He would never give me more than I can carry. If it is in His plan to make it take four years, then it will and He will help me walk those years with Justin. At this point, all we can do is have faith...